Slow tranformation
...even if sometimes I don't want to admit it.
Change (06/01/12)Not always easy and always happening. Our nature is change, evolution, for better or for worst. We can resist it, fight it and not accept it, it will still happen. We can flow with it, embrace it and just let it be, it will still happen. Sometimes it will be like an invisible enemy trying to push us down and some others change will be like the good hero taking us away and up. All I know is that most of the time I need the hero, even if it mean something different and unexpected.
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Invisible (06/02/12)Most of my life I’ve been invisible, I thought I liked it that way, but now I’m not so sure. It hurts not to be noticed, like not even a hello because people just didn’t see me; it hurts but is safe, so there is not much to complain about. The only valid complaint about being invisible would be that my invisibility has helped me to go deep and far to ugly places in myself. I rather am left alone and invisible that face people and give explanations of why I am who I am. Still it would be great to someday be discovered through and with love.
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Power (06/03/12)
Seems to be just a feeling, a fleeting one. When you are the one feeling powerful you can go only up and up, reach and get the impossible. When you are the one dominated by someone with power over you, it can be terrifying and still I can be kind of glad that if I don’t have the power at least I can follow the lead and not be hold accountable for whatever happens. But this are just stages of a fleeting feeling.
Crazy (06/04/12)In my life I have used the word crazy only when really in love. Crazy is more about really being myself, do and say what I feel, in an uncontrollable way but it’s the only way when this world is so intimidating. Crazy makes me think of happiness, of being free, of letting go. I’ve been crazy only once for a very short period but still hope to become crazy again, leave behind the normal and sane one I am so I can fit.
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Sincere (06/05/12)It’s like a very expensive some kind of necessity you can’t have unless you work hard, very hard, some people appreciate it, some others hate it and the majority rather do as if it doesn’t exist. I don’t know sincere from anyone, probably because nobody knows sincere from me, but I’ll keep trying.
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Warrior (06/06/12)
I have seemed myself as a warrior, especially considering that I have fought many battles; I have lost and won some. The way I have channeled all what bothers me took me to the war that never ends. A warrior only becomes stronger and knowledgeable, if I have forever fight I only hope one day is not only for me and about me. Warriors are brave, fear doesn’t stop them.